Thursday, November 13, 2008
Ridiculous
My FYP group made it into SPinnovex. I still remember juggling feelings of disbelief and elation when I received Yusof's sms regarding the good news. I was at my front door, exhausted after a round bike trip from home to Ikea in Queenstown and back. Dug into my saddle bag and fished out my phone. Called Yusof and fucked him for playing tricks on me, only to be told nonchalantly that he wasn't fucking with me and we did in fact got accepted into SPinnovex!
I'm supposed to be happy, because after all, our grades for FYP are already secured. However, I cannot bring myself to stay happy, not when the others close to me failed to make the cut. I guess it's normal to feel sorry for them, but thinking back, I felt that they deserved a place in SPinnovex more than my group.
Take Esther's case. She stays back for 3 hours twice a week to finish up her project. One of her group member's passed away early in the year (food poisoning), so they are down to 3 members. One's pretty hardworking while the other just exudes a devil-may-give-a-fuck attitude that we have all come across in our years of existence. It's amazing how she rallies the group together and how she takes charge of things. You would never expect this timid girl to be like that. Unfortunately, all their hard work came to naught. Try as she might, she could not fully conceal her sorrow this morning. Through her bubbly voice and infinite cuteness, I could see her deep disappointment inside.
My group on the other hand, is heavily influenced by the fine art of last-minute work and laziness. Our ppt for the SPinnovex interview was done by me over 4 mugs of caffeine, 14 hours before the scheduled interview. We rarely had any weekly meetings. We only met twice during the holidays to finish up on some soldering. I wish I could add more, but hell, those are the only things that we did! Then why were we accepted?! Could it be that ours was a student-suggested project, thus, more points for being ambitious? Or was it the bombastic words that we used during the interview that totally floored the lecturers into submission? I don't know.
All I know is, our work-to-reward ratio is fucking screwed. We did not deserve this opportunity. Well, I guess there's no use in feeling sorry for something that you've accomplished. Life is unfair, no? We've heard it all before. Let's just enjoy the ride then.
I'm supposed to be happy, because after all, our grades for FYP are already secured. However, I cannot bring myself to stay happy, not when the others close to me failed to make the cut. I guess it's normal to feel sorry for them, but thinking back, I felt that they deserved a place in SPinnovex more than my group.
Take Esther's case. She stays back for 3 hours twice a week to finish up her project. One of her group member's passed away early in the year (food poisoning), so they are down to 3 members. One's pretty hardworking while the other just exudes a devil-may-give-a-fuck attitude that we have all come across in our years of existence. It's amazing how she rallies the group together and how she takes charge of things. You would never expect this timid girl to be like that. Unfortunately, all their hard work came to naught. Try as she might, she could not fully conceal her sorrow this morning. Through her bubbly voice and infinite cuteness, I could see her deep disappointment inside.
My group on the other hand, is heavily influenced by the fine art of last-minute work and laziness. Our ppt for the SPinnovex interview was done by me over 4 mugs of caffeine, 14 hours before the scheduled interview. We rarely had any weekly meetings. We only met twice during the holidays to finish up on some soldering. I wish I could add more, but hell, those are the only things that we did! Then why were we accepted?! Could it be that ours was a student-suggested project, thus, more points for being ambitious? Or was it the bombastic words that we used during the interview that totally floored the lecturers into submission? I don't know.
All I know is, our work-to-reward ratio is fucking screwed. We did not deserve this opportunity. Well, I guess there's no use in feeling sorry for something that you've accomplished. Life is unfair, no? We've heard it all before. Let's just enjoy the ride then.
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# posted by Kamal : 11:05 PM
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dear Kamal,
we have not talked/chatted since puasa. i hope you're doing good.
:D:D
we have not talked/chatted since puasa. i hope you're doing good.
:D:D
# posted by 
: 15/11/08 02:35
: 15/11/08 02:35
I wished my FYP/MP would be as alpha as yours. Congrats on this thing. It's part of God's blessing too, remember that. Not everything lies in the massiveness of your delts, biceps and triceps.
Go buy a guitar pedal, write about a song about the unfair world. Cause usually, I'm in Esther's place. It's an unfair world,
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Go buy a guitar pedal, write about a song about the unfair world. Cause usually, I'm in Esther's place. It's an unfair world,
# posted by : 18/11/08 08:21
: 18/11/08 08:21
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